I realize that I believe in things I can’t see. I believe in gravity, I believe the earth travels around the sun although I’ve never felt or saw the earth move, and I believe in gospels of Jesus.
This is faith in what I’ve been told.
I have also believed in things that I’ve been told that don’t actually make my life great.
It is now time to believe in things that serve me to a fuller and better life.
I’m now choosing to believe that life is simple, that things I desire are seeking me and show up in effortlessly with surprise and wonder. That my good is never compromised and it follows me.
I am standing in my new beliefs because I can choose to believe in things I cannot explain but I know to be true in my heart.
So I choose to think on things that are good, virtuous, of a good report and they will become true for me.
I believe I can things turning around. I believe it is due to my determination to look for God in every situation and my decision to trust in His goodness, mercy and faithfulness. Its time for the breaking of day that brings a brightness that is illuminating and full of joy.
I pray my son receives restoration, that my boarders are extended, my tents enlarged with more chance and opportunity.
I pray Im ready to move out and that I see brighter with my children, filled with joy and laughter and abundance.
I pray God hears the cries of my heart, my groanings and takes pity on me.
Coming to the end of this Journey, has not been a walk through the park. But I thank God, I know him. The enemy had many fiery darts. My son in NJ got sick with a throat infection, because I work on commission, I have not met my income goal per pay period. I found myself in a personal mess of who said, she said. It was so negative, emotionally draining and feelings were very hurt. It was all just a fiery dart of the enemy.
I decided to thank God anyhow! Now that the smokes cleared with all of this, I can see it was just an attack to take me off focus.
I am coming close to getting back to being centered. I will carry my cross and endure hardships as a good soldier and I wont complain because it will all be okay and God has been GOOD.
I will rest securely in His love and I will love and forgive myself.
Self awareness is a constant seeking. We are always presented with challenges and opportunities to learn about ourselves. God is so good, in that He reveals ourselves to us in situations that we face. Some situations that my be disturbing or grievous, in our cry out to help, understanding or change He will show us our attitude, or belief system, be it unbelief, or lack of faith that keeps us in our circumstances or that does not manifest the change we seek.
What am I saying? When seeking change to situations, we can discover how certain situations has become apart of our lives. So, then how do we effect change or effectively change to have better experiences. In this self discovery, lies more change and determination to think right, to better our attitudes and belief system.
In the case with my Journey diet, I’m feeling flustered. I have made many changes and sacrifices and the changes I’ve sought have not happened, it is happening, but to the degree I’ve made changes, the scale victory I’d like to see is not there. And most of all I’m not adapting well to eating and not having that feeling of satisfaction. I have realized that I expect something from my food and meal time. I expecting to “feel” good. I never knew that I attached so much joy and satisfaction to my meals. I’m wondering why this is and why am I not satisfied. Honestly, this has caused me to have thoughts of quitting. Because I missed and wanted my “old feeling” of satisfaction I once got from food and truthfully I was annoyed.
And although, I had decided to eliminate certain foods from my diet prior to the Journey, it seemed as if I could give them up more easily because I felt it would serve me with feeling better after a meal and in my body, my skin and digestive system.
This was a happy choice and I felt good about having made the decision to make these changes. But now here I am on the Journey and feel myself resenting the sacrifices to a “feel good” meal.
I’ve asked God to reveal what it is about me that has me feeling and seeing things this way. Anyway, I’m pressing on and I’ll see it through to the end, pissed and all.
What I believe I’m hearing from God is there are times when the “bigger the challenge the bigger the victory”. So I’ll accept that with expectation.
The Reid Connection 
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